In three months’ time, I will be moving out of the place I’ve called home for the past two years. I knew that my stay here is only temporary. I’m surprised at myself for suddenly feeling down over this. I was quietly eating my dinner alone in a nearby restaurant, when I realized that in three months I might not have that many quiet moments to myself.
I’ve always enjoyed the times that I spend alone in this apartment. Sunday afternoons when I have to stay here to work on some stuff. Late nights when my siblings are still out partying and I’m left here, just quietly clicking my way around the net. Times like right now, when I’m the first to arrive home. I don’t think I will have these kind of moments alone again. Not unless I move to another apartment. That’s something I will think about, but for now I am quite resigned to moving back in with my parents.
This room is just filled with so many good memories. I know I’ll miss this room. The two years that I’ve spent living here has enriched my life in many ways. It’s an experience I’ll never forget and will always cherish.
I’m really missing C. I expected to miss her since she’ll be away for more than two weeks. I just didn’t expect to miss her this hard, this early!
I’m taken out of my rhythm. Suddenly I have extra time to do my work and other things. I just can’t find the energy for it. I’m out of sync. And with all the extra work that’s coming in, I don’t have the luxury of time to get myself back in rhythm. I just need to buckle down and do things.
I’m a week into my new role and it hasn’t fully sunk in yet. I’m so stressed just thinking about the things i have to do. I need to be on top of things and be more sure of myself. I need to be confident that I can do this. It feels like so many people are counting on me.
Maybe I shouldn’t be too concerned about how other people think. I still worry that I might not be good enough for other people. I guess I just need more time to adjust and be more comfortable in my new skin.
I’m a bit apprehensive about the extra workload and new challenges that i’ll face in the coming months. I’m not going to post any details here, let’s just say that i didn’t expect to face these challenges this soon. Well, I can’t do anything about it now, except to face it head on. I know I can do this, I guess I just wish it didn’t have to happen this soon.
I’m down to my last capsule of amoxicillin for tomorrow, and I’ve been free of that wretched dynatussin capsule for 2 days now. I still have the sniffles but I ascribe this to the cold rainy weather and my sleeping late last night. Nothing too serious to worry about. This is normal for me.
I’m going to sleep before 12MN tonight. I should start taking care of my body more. I’m not that old but I don’t feel that young anymore either.
For the past few months, I’ve been regulary getting ill. It seems like every 3 weeks I get hit by the flu or malaise. I think its due to a lack of exercise, late nights, and stress from work. My eating habits are also not the best I know they could be.
I know I should be exercising but I just can’t find time for it. I’m just not that motivated to exercise anymore. I used to go to the gym but I had my friends with me then. It made exercise seem like hanging out. It made it fun. I did try shooting baskets every other day. That lasted for about three weeks, until I became swamped with work. Now the basketball has lost some of its air and is sitting deflated on my shelf.
I know exercise is good for my health, general well-being, self-esteem, confidence , etc. I just can’t bring myself to do it! One day I’ll probably snap out of this funk and get back to shooting baskets regulary. I definitely will. Right now I’m probably just too sick to do anything. I need to get better, fast.
I like comedy films. I especially like the ones that don’t require you to think. I’ve practically watched every movie starring Leslie Nielsen. That includes Naked Gun, Naked Gun 2 1/2, Naked Gun 33 1/3, Dracula: Dead and Loving It, Airplane!, Wrongfully Accused, Spy Hard etc. I even bought a book on his life.
The list goes on: Scary Movie 1-4, Epic Movie, Not Another Teen Movie, White Chicks, Hot Shots, Hot Shots Part Deux, Talladega Nights, Semi-Pro, Anchorman, Wake Up Ron Burgundy, Blades of Glory, 40-year Old Virgin.. etc.
Why do I watch these movies? They’re such a stress reliever. No clever plot twists, no character development, no cohesive story line, just plain-old comedy. These movies are the real deal, not some pretentious film trying to be witty and funny but failing miserably. It’s a take it or leave it deal. Everything’s laid out on the table, no surprises.
My girflriend didn’t get it at first, but eventually she understood why I need to watch these kind of movies. These movies take my mind off things. If my mind were an LCD monitor, comedy films are my screensaver. They prevent “burn-in”, and keep me from burning out. They give me a break from my regular programming.It’s escapism, I agree. But there’s nothing wrong about that. Everybody needs a break once in a while.
This is not the perfect time to start blogging. My task list for the month is pretty long. The semester’s about to end and I’m loaded with work. I don’t really know why I’m doing this.
On the other hand, why not, right?
I don’t need to blog. I tried it a long time ago and gave it up. I gave up blogging when I felt that I was giving away too much information about myself.
But now I realize that a blog is just a blog. It isn’t supposed to be my journal. And besides, I could use the writing exercise. It does feel good to write something other than work-related mail.
